2011-2012 was a big year for me. I read The Alchemist. I ended a decade-long friendship. I got married and moved halfway around the world to Guam.
In Guam, I was 14 hours ahead of my friends and family. Their mornings were my nights and my nights where their mornings. In hindsight, it was the perfect condition for newlyweds — the isolation and freedom to determine who we wanted to be as a family. It was also the perfect time for me to figure out what I wanted to do with my life.
I had a lot of reasons to give up. Life had dealt me a lot of lemons and for some reason I kept squeezing the juice in open wounds. Reliving my failures, blaming my present on my past was what I knew. I was extremely stressed. But, for every thought of throwing in the towel, there was a more powerful narrative running through my mind. A narrative that stomped all over my self-pity, confusion & doubt.
I knew that I was created on purpose, for a purpose. I knew that God had good plans for my life. I knew that feeling weak and inadequate was when God could best use me. And, I knew that God was able to restore whatever I needed to fulfill His calling on my life.
Have you ever wanted to say something to your parent(s) that you know will get you slapped so you bite your tongue. Everytime my self-pity said, “It’ll never happen,” I couldn’t even allow that thought to remain. God had been too good to me. He had seen me through every time. Those facts had an unshakable grip on me. Still, my negative thinking didn’t ease up. And, the two of forces tugging was a lot.
Feeling pulled in two, I realized that I couldn’t have two rulers in my head. One had to go. And, so, I chose God’s Word over my feelings.
And, just as I had to choose my thoughts, I had to also choose my words. I had to choose peace or chaos, joy or misery, a positive outlook or a negative one.
I was responsible for my life. And, my choices would either lead to a small, victimized life or a happy, successful one.
There are many deciding factors, but the first one is figuring out what you want.
It’s that simple & that hard.
Having a vision & gaining clarity of purpose is a life-saver & a life-changer. It doesn’t happen overnight. There are many steps. But, you can begin the first one today.
My Abundant Life Journal is going to help you clarify exactly how you want your life to look.
Click here to download it, take a few days to complete it, and then be on the lookout for the next email that’s going to answer any questions you may have and introduce step two!
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